-besties-

2010-11-20T23:53:00.000-08:00

hello people.
wait let me talk about hp7-1 first.
IT WAS EPIC!
made me cry every other scene.
i think ron was the best actor, then hermione.
awwww...
draco had too little scenes.

OK TO MAIN TOPIC: elDANCE
due to some technical difficulties,
i cant post on elblog, so have to post here lo.
hmm so its tmr, mon, 22/11 at my hse.
Choice 1: Brunch at JP at 10, then i bring you guys to my hse.
Choice 2: 11 at my hse. haha you'll need directions of course.
from JurongPoint, take 242 until you see a place call PioneerMall.
the bus-stop you alight at will be opposite of it :)
then call me bah :D
please comment on the fb status for any inquires.

2010-11-20T06:24:00.000-08:00

hey..
woke up today startled.
had a dream about the dreamakers.
we were in school, together.
but when i woke up, i realised it was impossible.
we were all from different schools...
and we will probably not see each other for a very long time.
boot camp is over. and i couldnt take it.
you're an idiot therena. stupid idiot.
but then again..
i cant be blamed for this.
i do feel really sad, thus i do have the right to cry.
but then again..
crying for this just make me look stupid.
but then again..
i really miss all of them, esp the dreamakers.

2010-11-07T03:42:00.000-08:00

the lyrics are so simple, yet so touching.

王力宏 - 柴米油鹽醬醋茶

小时候你想要什么
我要一台大大蓝色的飞机
带我环游世界
到地球每一个角落
在蓝天白云中穿梭

而长大以后我想要什么
我要一台小小红色答录机
和你一起录下
喂我们现在不在家
蓝色变成红色因为你

柴米油盐酱醋茶
一点一滴都是幸福在发芽
月儿弯弯爱的傻
有了你什么都不差

小时候你想要什么
我要一台大大蓝色的飞机
带我环游世界
去地球每一个角落
在蓝天白云中穿梭

喔长大以后我想要什么
我要一台小小红色答录机
和你一起录下
喂我们现在不在家
蓝色变成红色因为你

柴米油盐酱醋茶
一点一滴都是幸福在发芽
月儿弯弯爱的傻
有了你什么都不差

给你快乐无论白天黑夜
握紧双手就算刮风下雨
我就是要你
要你待在我身边
保护你直到永远

柴米油盐酱醋茶
一点一滴都是幸福在发芽
月儿弯弯爱的傻
有了你什么都不差

月儿弯弯爱的傻
没有一个理由
活的那么复杂
有了你什么都不差

2010-11-07T01:02:00.000-07:00

im afraid.
but i dont know of what.
im worried.
but i dont know of who.
yeah, im lost.

2010-10-25T05:00:00.000-07:00

LOL today is such a funny day.
suppose to do project at gen hse.
in the end? facebook. twitter. weibo.
then? youtube bout, ft.island. shinee. superjunior.
LOL. the project? esther was doing it when...
me and gen watch 公主嫁到
while sher watch playful kiss >< SO BAD~
aiyo watching starsearch now.
OMG WTF ARE THEY DOING?!
catwalk, become gangwalk/slutwalk.
hahahaa hmm one of the judge quite shuai eh?
i was totally thinking about that,
then chenhanwei's face pop onto the screen ><
eating now, gonna lucifer/bonamana/loveya later.
maybe i shouldnt...
cos i wanna read my conan,
wanna watch my 公主嫁到, or 死神少女.
OH AND MY MONOLOGUE!!! T.T
howhowhow.. i cant get my eyes to tear.
I REALLY LIKE ALVIANTO!
he is so into this syf la. can feel de..
-.- now they are dancing nobody..
no i should say memorising steps.
only a few is dancing. LO)L THOSE ARE THE DANCERS
no wonder... WTF one even counting steps.><
hahahaha LAUGHS xD
now is some sexy dance..
hahaha one cannot keep up, one too fast.
the last one? BIG FAIL DANCE WRONG.
lol omg im so evil shant comment on them anymore.
bb :D

2010-10-07T01:38:00.000-07:00

Love Ya [SS501]

YEAH HERE WE GO ONCE AGAIN
GUESS WHO’S BACK, LET’S GO
THIS ONE IS ALL ABOUT YOU
I REALLY HATE YOU BUT I LOVE YOU
SO WHAT CAN I DO? NOW LISTEN

It hurts when I look at you
I fall short of breath
Now hold my hand
Why not; he doesn't love you
WHY DON'T YOU GET IT?
BABY LET ME
LOVE YA LOVE YA LOVE YA

I'm risking it all
Placing this spell
WE CAN BE SO PERFECT
Even if the whole world becomes my enemy
It can't be anyone but you
BABY LET ME
LOVE YA LOVE YA LOVE YA

I've been waiting up until today
Sorry - I've been eagerly waiting for your old relationship that pushed me aside to brutally end
Forget him
Throw him away now
He wasn't a good match for you anyway
SO BABY WON'T YOU COME TO ME
I'LL MAKE YOU MAKE YOU HAPPY

It hurts when I look at you
I fall short of breath
Now hold my hand
Why not; he doesn't love you
WHY DON'T YOU GET IT?
BABY LET ME
LOVE YA LOVE YA LOVE YA

I'm risking it all
Placing this spell
WE CAN BE SO PERFECT
Even if the whole world becomes my enemy
It can't be anyone but you
BABY LET ME
LOVE YA LOVE YA LOVE YA

At first I hoped you'd be happy
Even if it was by his side
I believed.
I wasn't happy, although he was enough
But then you cried - I saw your saddness
I try holding back, but now I'm exhausted, crazy
I CANNOT LET IT GO I GOTTA TAKE YOU
This is our destiny

It hurts when I look at you
I fall short of breath
Now hold my hand
Why not; he doesn't love you
WHY DON'T YOU GET IT?
BABY LET ME
LOVE YA LOVE YA LOVE YA

I'm risking it all
Placing this spell
WE CAN BE SO PERFECT
Even if the whole world becomes my enemy
It can't be anyone but you
BABY LET ME
LOVE YA LOVE YA LOVE YA

How can you not know?
Why him of all people?
Your painful love and so on, I can't bear to see it
Forget that bad love that blackened your heart
Stop now PLEASE! You're searching for pain in your reflection in the mirror, tears flowing without a sound
My heart completely rips apart
I CAN CROSS OVER THE SEA
Please believe me
I'll call the heavens as my witness
Because we will be the last love YEAH

It hurts when I look at you
I fall short of breath
Now hold my hand
Why not; he doesn't love you
WHY DON'T YOU GET IT?
BABY LET ME
LOVE YA LOVE YA LOVE YA

I'm risking it all
Placing this spell
WE CAN BE SO PERFECT
Even if the whole world becomes my enemy
It can't be anyone but you
BABY LET ME
LOVE YA LOVE YA LOVE YA

It can't be (this is what it is)
It can't be (SS501)
Without you

WE OUT

2010-09-28T01:01:00.000-07:00

recently set up a few new things..
new twitter and new 微博 :)
nono i am not gen or jlyn..
i dont just use them to stalk people.
:D anw, i am dying with all the workload.
stupid tests.
tmr still need to get my scs notes frm eugene.
EFFING NINETHIRTY IN THE MORNING! T.Y
now ATTEMTING math mock paper.
quite fail luh... :(
how? i dont think i can do as well this term.
YES I AM TRYING REALLY HARD.
but just cant do it..
well i AM born dumb!

p.s. yeah cockroach im quite certain the gangster is your.

2010-08-27T07:05:00.000-07:00

hello.
its kind of nice to be back.
well, just a few of what happened recently.
i miss wanzhen, very very much.
GET WELL SOON!!!
then we had a new drama coach, Ms Ros
i think she is really good :)
i am trying very hard at drama,
but i am afraid of people's views of me.
should i open up more?
anyway, i like alvianto more and more :)
i can see that he is serious about drama :)
hmm.. then i confessed to angela,
and i was really glad she didnt judge me :)
sorry for lying to you at first...
i dunno. now for a new song :)
i like this one alot as it means alot to me.
dunno, in one way it matters to me
it is music that keeps me alive nowadays.
---------------------------------------------
Ft.Island – Love Love Love
My heart stops, my breathing dies, you’re leaving
My heart is freezing, I love you, I was happy
I was born as your man so I loved you endlessly
That’s it, I try to resist the urge to cry

The raindrops soak my whole body
I force myself again, look up and look at the sky
The rain enters my eyes as I think of you
And it replaces the tears I have been holding in

I loved you ‘til madness and I was so very happy
The love memories given to me send you away

Goodbye my love love love
Take care my love love love
Even if the tears filling up soak my whole body
Now good bye good bye good bye
Leave me and please be happy
One step, one step, you’re going farther away

Silently I fill up a glass of alcohol
As I hardly hold it with my hands, i let out a sigh
I drink one glass
As I think of you
I also swallow the tears I have been holding in

I loved you ‘til madness and I was so very happy
The love memories given to me send you away

Goodbye my love love love
Take care my love love love
Even if the tears filling up soak my whole body
Now good bye good bye good bye
Leave me and please be happy
One step, one step, you’re going farther away

My heart is cold, I didn’t know love
Thank you, really. I now understand that this is what love is
My heart stops, my breathing dies, you’re leaving

Good bye my love love love
Take care my love love love
Even if the tears filling up soak my whole body
Now good bye good bye good bye
Leave me and please be happy
One step, one step, you’re going farther away

The raindrops soak my whole body, I look at the sky

Even if the tears filling up soak my whole body
Now goodbye goodbye goodbye
Leave me and please be happy
One step, one step, you’re going farther away

2010-08-02T03:07:00.001-07:00

spent one whole hour walking around jurong point alone today..
this had nvr happen last time, but now...
its happening more and more often.
maybe it's just me, my fault that people are drifting away.
my fault. but what did i do?

you may think, oh its just lunch, why is she whining about it?
but for me,
lunch is not just throwing food into your mouth and munching.
lunch is eating with people you love and laughing together.
whatever, you may say.
but for me, it does matter. alot.

i dont know, maybe im just thinking too much.
but i am afraid of losing all my mates.
recently, my companion is just, music.
yes, its a good companion, i know.
but it makes me think of stuff i dont want to think about.
stuff like...
never mind.
lets just hope im thinking too much.
please.

2010-07-30T07:29:00.000-07:00

sian sian sian sian.
this wk was hectic!

SAT.
went zhengzhang's hse to do S stuff after cca, OMG HIS TWIN IS O.O
imagine seeing two zhengzhangs, WITH THE SAME VOICE!
lol! when they quarrel it'll sound like and idiot scolding himself. :D

SUN.
did CID at eugene's hse, jumbo flat like tzz's :)
nice, i should get one too :) big kitchen :D
LOL he has a movie room at his hse sehhh.
OHOH and his coms, one com, two screens!
lol quite fun :) the croc is really cute :D

MON.
jc syf showcase rehearsals.
skip school :D

TUE.
jc syf showcase preview.
tiring.

WED.
JC SYF SHOWCASE!!!
SUCCESSFUL!!!!!

THUR.
EL BOOTHS.
5 hrs straight siah :)
LOL whole wk dunno miss how many lessons le.

FRI.
today lo. tired ttm.
LOL dunno why still doing this.

Overall.
this week, i learnt alot stuff.
i saw alot of stuff, and i realised much too.
well. i can say i'm waking up.
yet, i do wish i am still sleeping.
forever sounds about nice now :)

2010-07-10T20:25:00.000-07:00

feeling bored today.
was searching google bout "meow tuition centre" by random,
and the first result was some blog of a random guy.
apparantly he saw the new branch of this centre and said:

"Meow meow meow... Would any parents even dare to contemplate on sending their child to a cat school? O_O All they do is meow... -.- By the way, saw this around HDB flats in Jurong West..."

well.. im not gonna scold this person.
but i have to state the truth.
MOEW TUITION CENTRE IS THE BEST.
apparantly A LOT OF parents DID CONTEMPLATE on sending their children into GOOD HANDS. i love meow tuition. it helped me understand alot and the teacher meow is great! she is like a total good friend cum teacher, hello my math in primary school from 60+ became A*. to this guy out there, why not step in and take a look at our wall decos. the results of the hearts and souls these teachers put on their students.

well. lastly, thankyou to this whoever you are guy, cos you helped us advertise :D readers of your blog must have now notice us, and might come and find us cos you stated we are at jurong west, and the picture you posted stated BLK 428 :D

lastly.I SHALL ADVERTISE FOR MEOW TUITION!

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intensive revision: coached by experienced and qualified teachers, commited tutors, NIE graduates and subject specialist!!
(EXAM FOCUS, DIAGNOSTIC ASSESSMENT, MOCK TESTS, QUESTION ANSWERING SKILLS, ESSAY TEMPLATES, QUESTION BANK)

secondary subjects:
english, A math, E math, Physics, Chemistry, Biology, Social science and chinese.

JC subjects:
general paper [peel methods, example to point conversation, socratic reasoning, paul's wheel of reasoning]
Math[h1,h2], Physics[h1,h2], Chemistry[h1,h2], Economics[h1,h2].

Visit us: Blk 428, Jurong West Ave 1, #o1-258
(behind JurongGreen CC)
Contact us: 65601108 / 96307879
visit http://www.meowtuition.com.sg/ or call for more details :)

[lol if you come and check us out on sundays, might see me :)]

2010-06-23T07:43:00.000-07:00

i think i am weird.
you see, for Maximum Ride,
i cried for Ari, the bad character.
for harry potter?
i cried, not for dumbledore
not for harry, ron, hermione
or lupin, tonks, mad-eye, fred...
BUT I CRIED FOR SNAPE and SIRIUS!!!
AND ESPECIALLY MALFOY!!!

oh i remember watching the movie...
when malfoy cried, i did too,
and i couldnt stop for a long time.
and i reread the book again..
and once again i cried for him...

i realise i always cry for the people
who are suppose to be bad, evil.
but yet again. if you all used your heart,
and thought like me,
you will realise they werent evil.
they didnt have a choice.
especially Malfoy and Ari,
they did it for their own father.
they suffered too, and they are still young!
they didnt deserve to be hated.
instead, they needed someone to care, and understand.
and Severus Snape,
he did it for his own love.
the love that he had since young.

maybe you guys think that was all crap..
i dont blame you all,
most people's thoughts differ from me.
:)

2010-06-07T07:36:00.001-07:00

Because i'm a fool/ A song for a fool

I must be like this because I’m a fool
It seems alright even when I’m hurt
Even when I’m teased about my pitiful love
Because I’m a fool beyond help

I was good to her because I wanted to be
I was happy with just that
If she smiles just once
I’m happy with that smile

Thinking “This girl doesn’t have a person she likes”
I simply stay by her side like this
Because this is a love where I’m happy to be giving
I don’t expect anything in return

A place from where I can reach her any time she holds out her hand
A place from where I can visit her any time she calls for me
I’ll stay there without changing
Because I love her

Because she was the one I chose
Even the pain made me happy
If she looks back at me just once
I’m happy with that

Thinking “This girl doesn’t have a person she likes”
I simply stay by her side like this
Because this is a love where I’m happy to be giving
I don’t expect anything in return

A place from where I can reach her any time she holds out her hand
A place from where I can visit her any time she calls for me
I’ll stay there without changing
Because I love her

Until someone else to watch over her in my place arrives
I’ll stay by her side for the time being
Because this is a love where I’m just happy to gaze at her
I don’t need anything in return

So that she can lean on me and rest any time
I’ll always appear the same
Even if she leaves me without saying goodbye
I’ll let her go saying thanks

Because I’m a fool

2010-05-31T02:13:00.000-07:00

After Love [translation] F.T. Island

I thought you were my love
I thought you were my everything
I believed that you would be my last love

I laughed only for you
I lived only for you
I believed in your love and that it was happiness

It’s all lies. All lies
Your love for me was all lies
You’ve hurt me so
You left me crying

You said you’ll love only me, protect only me
Your love was all lies
You took away my heart and my love
and leaving me was love

Being loved by one person
Giving love to one person
I foolishly believed that person would be you

It’s all lies. All lies
Your love for me was all lies
You’ve hurt me so
You left me crying

You said you’ll love only me, protect only me
Your love was all lies
You took away my heart and my love
and leaving me was love

{RAP}
To say it was love was a lie
Saying that you loved me was a lie
Saying it was eternal was a lie
Left me Only with the words that she’ll come back
Where did she go (We’re falling further apart)
Where did she go (We’re falling further & further apart)
I’ll love only you

Just in case you came back, back to me
I can’t love again
Even though you hurt me, and saddened me
I’m waiting only for you

It’s all lies, All lies
Our separation was all a lie
Because you are my love, my all
I’m waiting only for you

A Dustland Fairytale

2010-05-23T07:36:00.000-07:00

A Dustland Fairytale

A Dustland Fairytale beginning
With just another white trash county kiss
In '61
Long brown hair and foolish eyes

He'd look just like you'd want him to
Some kind of slick chrome American prince
Blue jean serenade
Moon River what'd you do to me
I don't believe you

Saw Cinderella in a party dress
But she was looking for a nightgown
I saw the devil wrapping up his hands
He's getting ready for the showdown
I saw the minute that I turned away
I got my money on a pawn tonight

A change came in disguise of revelation
Set his soul on fire
She said she always knew he'd come around
And the decades disappear
Like sinking ships but we persevere
God gives us hope
But we still fear what we don't know
Your mind is poison

Castles in the sky sit stranded, vandalized
The drawbridge is closing

Saw Cinderella in a party dress
But she was looking for a nightgown
I saw the devil wrapping up his hands
He's getting ready for the showdown
I saw the ending when they turned the page
I threw my money and I ran away

Straight to the valley of the great divide
Out where the dreams all hide
Out where the wind don't blow
Out here the good girls die
And the sky won't snow
Out here the bird don't sing
Out here the field don't grow
Out here the bell don't ring
Out here the bell don't ring

Out here the good girls die

Now Cinderella don't you go to sleep
It's such a bitter form of refuge
Well don't you know the kingdom's under siege
And everybody needs you
Is there still magic in the midnight sun
Or did you leave it back in '61?
In the cadence of a young man's eyes
Out where the dreams all hide

2010-05-21T04:36:00.000-07:00

nothing better to do... so i shall blog!

well hmm today wasnt really good.
firstly, we had a, what, ten mins recess?!
due to bio and chi -.-
then i got back my bio results.
pass, but... hmm... i expected much better.
then came the piling of homework.
uggh.
hmm then came lunch, and e.lit.
which was free period cause no teacher.
this one half hr was awesome, yet not.

we were all sitting at a corner talking
then zx joined us cos his teacher hacked too.
the bugs, namely zixuan eugene and ziwei -.-
sat around me, and dunno why start whacking me.
T.T
every few seconds, "PIAK!", "OUCH!"
my poor thighs, who became red for quite long >:(
red. and hot, literally.
nah. dont go all "WHY THE HELL DID THEY DO THAT!"
they werent serious, just fooling around :)
and that kinda made me forget the sad truth too.
until. the last five mins...

zixuan saw his teacher walk pass,
and therefore told us "class" was over.
he then gave me a weeny hug, and said,
"byebye for eight days..."
oh yeah, him, eugene and cecilia were going vietnam.
i wanted to hug him back so much,
to hug all of them and tell them to stay.
but i know they had to go...
and i realised shermain, wanzhen and shikai would leave.
soon after they leave, to china.

the impact was so strong,
it was just like back in twobee again,
when half of the class were going to china,
while i couldnt no matter how many times i asked.
and oh yeah, great, many of them are flying off to.
its just like part of me was ripped away.
and in a startle, i remembered my sister was going uk too.
more of me gone.

i know they will come back,
but still, it would be so, so different without them.
just like then without half of twobee.
so different, so wrong.
and so i cried, not in front of them of cause,
they already left.
i cried to angela, then to wanzhen[she caught me].
and now to the computer.
probably later again to my pillow.

i know im being stupid, no need to tell me that.
but i already went through this once.
yet i cant help but go through it again.
and probably again some other time.

nevertheless, have a safe journey my dears...

2010-05-20T02:55:00.000-07:00

just realised i super long nvr blog liao...
quite alot of things happen larh.
just that i dunno how to say.
stupid blogger eh?
going to some new tuition later -.-
too bad. who ask me fail chem.

haha. i know what to say liao.
to people out there.
please do not ask me weird qns.
i shall not entertain them.
what you see doesnt equate,
to the truth.

2010-05-14T23:15:00.000-07:00

Month One.

Hi Mommy!
I am only 3/4 of an inch long,
But I have all my organs.
I love the sound of your voice.
Every time I hear it,
I wave my arms and legs.
The sound of your heart beat
Is my favorite lullaby.

Month Two.

Mommy,
Today I learned how to suck my thumb.
If you could see me
You could definitely tell that I am a baby.
I’m not big enough to survive outside my home though.
It is so nice and warm in here.

Month Three.

You know what Mommy,
I’m a boy!
I hope that makes you happy.
I always want you to be happy.
I don’t like it when you cry.
You sound so sad.
It makes me sad too,
And I cry with you even though
You can’t hear me.

Month Four.

Mommy,
My hair is starting to grow.
It is very short and fine
But I will have a lot of it.
I spend a lot of my time exercising.
I can turn my head and curl my fingers and toes
And stretch my arms and legs.
I am becoming quite good at it too.

Month Five.

You went to the doctor today.
Mommy, he lied to you.
He said that I’m not a baby.
I am a baby, Mommy, your baby.
I think and feel.
Mommy, what’s abortion?

Month Six.

I can hear that doctor again.
I don’t like him.
He seems cold and heartless.
Something is intruding my home.
The doctor called it a needle.
Mommy what is it? It burns!
Please make him stop!
I can’t get away from it!
Mommy! Help me!

Month Seven.

Mommy,
I am okay.
I am in Jesus’s arms.
He is holding me.
He told me about abortion.
Why didn’t you want me, Mommy?

Every abortion is just…

One more heart that was stopped.
Two more eyes that will never see.
Two more hands that will never touch.
Two more legs that will never run.
One more mouth that will never speak.

If you’re against abortion, repost.

2010-05-06T06:15:00.000-07:00

There is a castle on a cloud,
I like to go there in my sleep,
Aren't any floors for me to sweep,
Not in my castle on a cloud.

There is a room that's full of toys,
There are a hundred boys and girls,
Nobody shouts or talks too loud,
Not in my castle on a cloud.

There is a lady all in white,
Holds me and sings a lullaby,
She's nice to see and she's soft to touch,
She says "Cosette, I love you very much."

I know a place where no one's lost,
I know a place where no one cries,
Crying at all is not allowed,
Not in my castle on a cloud.

-------------------------------------------

will there ever be such a place?

or do i have to die first to be able to see it.

2010-05-04T03:56:00.000-07:00

feeling so fucked up now,
was in such a good mood larh !
well here it goes.

freaking tired after using up my brain juices,
i boarded the 242 bus, and went on the upper deck.
when the bus started moving, i was like,
"yay! im the only one on the upper deck!"
then i msg eugene, and fell asleep.
.
.
.
then i was waken up by the vibration on my hand,
and thought "oh yeah i was msging..."
then i open my eyes, and nearly screamed.
guess what?
i was surrounded by a bunch of malay guys -.-
literally. like,

Guy1 Guy 2 (alley) Guy3
me Guy4 (alley) Guy5
Guy6 Guy7 (alley) Guy8 Guy9

and the rest of the upper deck was empty.

woah.
they saw my shock face and burst into laughter.
they they started looking and talking bout me openly.
and laughing, of course.
i look out of the window and thought.
"two more stops, heck larh."
then i act as if i didnt see them.
i did steal a glance at the one sitting beside me.
wrong move.
the bastards exploded into laughter again.
bus stops, gibberish didnt, bus started again.

one more stop.
Guy2 asked me whether i was scared.
LIKE DUH OF COURSE.
but i said "why? youre a monster?"
and i rolled my eyes, looking out at the windows again.
big risk there, but i cant say im scared right?
again, guffaws, and gibberish, and more guffaws.
bus stops, guffaws didnt, bus starts again.

REACHING MY STOP!!!!
well, at least i was right, they didnt dare to do anything.
i reached out to press the doorbell, bad choice.
Guy4(the one beside me) FUCKING GRAB THE BELL TOO.
and therefore that screwed idiot touched my bloody hand.
and yeah, they laughed, non stop.
fucktards.
but no, i am not going to show that im scared.
so i gathered my things, and walked to the staircase.
the ever so childish Guy2 wanted to trip me but failed.
when i walk down the stairs, Guy8+9 yelled "BYE SUISUI!"
and followed by echo byes and, you guessed it, laughter.
idiots. whats suisui anyway? probably gibberish.

wow. never felt so relieve to leave a bus before.
my runaway heart finally came back.
in any case, i was proud not to show that i was afraid.
thats probably what they wanted.

oh i saw my cousin post this on fb:

To love is to suffer. To avoid suffering, one must not love. But then, one suffers from not loving. Therefore, to love is to suffer; not to love is to suffer; to suffer is to suffer. To be happy is to love. To be happy, then, is to suffer, but suffering makes one unhappy. Therefore, to be happy, one must love or love to suffer or suffer from too much happiness ♥

2010-05-03T05:42:00.000-07:00

WAH SIAO.
today was fun larh.
fun like siao.
went science center and blah blah xD
wheeeeee!
*slides down the slope*
arghhhhh!
*shivers down the spine*
omg i cant wait to go again.
I LOVE YOU Xs!

hey 2B,
after exams, can we go badminton?
rmb how we used to play badminton?
like at the jurong sports complex?
pleaseeeeeee
can we go againnnn???

2010-04-27T07:06:00.000-07:00

click if you have nothing to do and need some entertainment.

2010-04-24T21:20:00.000-07:00

well, yesterday night i was thinking through stuff,
um and i suddenly saw all these in my mind.
well it is actually quite a few songs put together,
forming some kind of monologue.
hmm.. yeah.. see whether you can recgonise the songs bah.
i might translate it into english next.
but yeah, chinese is always better.
hmm if you see brackets,
the word in them is how i link the parts tgt.
oh those in red are the title of the songs.

[a girl was walking, walking away from her sorrows, and she saw]
不远处有一片土站了一棵枯的树
仔细看那树枝的孤度像在哭
枯树前杂踏脚步收集爱情的孤独
[she asks]
"为什么眼前荒芜是天下有情人的归宿"
枯树前杂踏脚步刻著心碎的控诉
[she wonders why]
读完别人的感触却又义无反顾的投入

[she sat under the tree, and she said to herself]
坚强得太久好疲惫想抱爱的人沉沉的睡
卷来的风暴凶猛里有种美死了心痛就没感觉

[she recalls the past]
我不会爱拥抱总是太沉太慢
甜蜜常常少说一段用心再深看不出来
当你遇见一份除了我之外的温暖
两人的幸福变成三人拥挤不堪
除了忘我祝福我能怎么办
对你的爱深的像一片海重的我放不开
亲爱的我真的不会爱

[and she screamed into the valley]
请原谅我原谅我不成熟
不爱你是藉口好让你离开我
请原谅我好想自私将你占有
一个寂寞就给我承受换你过更好的生活
原谅我必须假装爱错
别让时间倒流我怕说不出口
原谅我没有解释太多心痛
别无所求彻底忘了我爱原来要舍得
难过我才懂

[she calmed down, and she thought]
我能想像在远方的路旁会有一双目光
是否一样都带着昨天的伤试图想要遗忘
我能想像对爱情的信仰注定得盲了又盲
我的眼框如果有悲伤那是过程中的收藏
我收藏我的泪你的光

[and she decided]
我愿做你的召唤兽陪你闯危险的宇宙
期待你有一天回头看看我
当你真的躲不过诱惑我安然地放手
再回到角落狩猎你我永远的以后
我愿做你的召唤兽一生配合你的要求
不能够忍受你可能失去我
当你疲倦坠落的时候能抓住我的手
哪怕是只有一秒的梦也值得追求

如果时间可以抵上感伤
我愿意无限制的燃烧
只要你的镜头永远印着微笑

[she looks back to the valley, reconsidering.]
那片山谷入口处清楚刻著伤心人的墓
那片浓雾隔绝了其实可以忘了爱的省悟
别哭
那片乐土是不是至少能让眼泪都停住
祝福什么都不再记住
祝福下一次总会幸福
祝福爱情的信徒
那善男信女不再辛苦

[startled, she realises]
原来不是白就是黑只不过是天真的以为
要醉得清醒要无辜的犯罪现实的世界只有灰
梦见发着光的草原一身伤回到很久以前
我选择不恨带着平静走远醒来后遗憾是长夜
[desperate, she asked]
灰色空间我是谁记不得幸福是什么滋味
[looking at the ancient tree, she asked again]
无路可退你是谁怎么为我流泪请抱着我流泪

woah.. if you cry after reading this,
its no big deal. me too.
if you grasp what i wanted to say,
then thank you, youre my ancient tree.

2010-04-15T05:27:00.000-07:00

MAXIMUM RIDE.

i dont care what you all think.
my heart goes out for ARI.
yes, ARI, the Eraser.
you may say he is an eraser,
but did he have a choice?
you may say he kills,
but have you ever thought why?
you may say he cant leave Max alone,
but again, why couldnt he?

at the end of the day,
Ari is just a little boy.
he kills because he wanted to gain attention.
to be the best so his father would look at him,
praise him, or simply register his existence.
his existence as a son, not a weapon.
he couldnt leave Max alone because he likes her.
moreover his dad ONLY cared about Max,
you cant blame him for wanting to get rid of her.
blame his dad.
Ari is just a kid.
A kid who was made a weapon without a choice.
A kid who was deprived of love and concern.
A kid who can only count on himself and no one else.
A kid who appears strong, but wasnt.
A kid who yearns his dad's recognition.
A kid who has an expiry date, who had to die.
A kid who have no one to turn to when his heart ache,
but only to be able to hurt himself, bite himself,
just to numb of the psychological pain he had.
A kid who loves his gameboy.

2010-04-03T22:22:00.000-07:00

I AM EATING A PEAR

2010-03-29T03:10:00.000-07:00

what do you think bout this drawing?

i drew this at chinese brush painting today.

done commenting?

take a look at the next,

nice right?????

as compared to this, the top one suck.

this is totally NICEplusE-S-T!
while the one at the top?

SUCKYplusE-S-T :(

anyway, take a look at 3L's masterpieces

[click to enlarge]

2010-03-26T06:01:00.000-07:00

now i seriously hopes my dream will come true.
or even better, let me die earlier than 24 thank you very much.
no doubt, i have once again started another war at home.
and i didnt mean it. really.
but the point is, i always do things unknowingly.
i am trouble.

2010-03-25T04:58:00.000-07:00

recently, well, for the past one or two weeks,
i always come across this term "Illuminati" in sharon's blog
it seems interesting , like how she said its bout mind control...
and other related stuff.
so ya, i decided to check it out.
and my reaction after reading my first article was,
WOW. shocking, really.
so, i have decided to pass this message bout illuminati down.
and they can all be found in vigilantcitizen.com
tada~~~
yeah hmm shall i put some interesting articles?

so, everybody knows lady gaga eh?
the next four links brings you to
LADY GAGA, THE ILLUMINATI PUPPET
http://vigilantcitizen.com/?p=1676 part 1.
http://vigilantcitizen.com/?p=2614 part 2.
and below is "bad romance, the occult meaning"
http://vigilantcitizen.com/?p=2737
and lastly, my favourite, TELEPHONE
http://vigilantcitizen.com/?p=3423

hmm how bout kiddy shows?
Yu-Gi-Oh!: Occult Symbolism for Children
http://vigilantcitizen.com/?p=3300
The Esoteric Interpretation of Pinocchio
http://vigilantcitizen.com/?p=3016
The Occult Roots of The Wizard of Oz
http://vigilantcitizen.com/?p=2282
Transformers 2: NWO Agenda and Occult Symbols
http://vigilantcitizen.com/?p=1564

no seriously, read them!
and you'll be suprise at what you find in every article.
lol esp the ones that anazlyzes songs,
they make total sense,
and you'll nvr look that song the same way again.

2010-03-24T04:54:00.000-07:00

Can I Have This Dance

Take my hand, take a breath
Pull me close and take one step
Keep your eyes locked on mine,
And let the music be your guide.

Won't you promise me
(now won't you promise me, that you'll never forget)
We'll keep dancing
(to keep dancing)
wherever we go next

It's like catching lightning the chances of finding
someone like you
It's one in a million, the chances of feeling
the way we do

And with every step together,
we just keep on getting better
So can I have this dance
(can I have this dance)
Can I have this dance

Take my hand, I'll take the lead
And every turn will be safe with me
Don't be afraid, afraid to fall
You know I'll catch you through it all

And you can't keep us apart
(even a thousand miles, can't keep us apart)
'Cause my heart is
(cause my heart is)
wherever you are

It's like catching lightning the chances of finding
someone like you
It's one in a million, the chances of feeling
the way we do

And with every step together,
we just keep on getting better
So can I have this dance
(can I have this dance)
Can I have this dance

Oh no mountains too high enough, oceans too wide
'Cause together or not, our dance won't stop
Let it rain, let it pour
What we have is worth fighting for
You know I believe, that we were meant to be

It's like catching lightning the chances of finding
someone like you (like you)
It's one in a million, the chances of feeling
the way we do (way we do)
And with every step together,
we just keep on getting better
So can I have this dance
(can I have this dance)
Can I have this dance
Can I have this dance
Can I have this dance

2010-03-19T06:52:00.000-07:00

WAHAHA
went sentosa with oneC ytd :)
woohoo the photos are on fb liao!
it was fun :]
came back with sandfilled ears and bad ankle :(
but still FUN! worth it. totally.
hmm lets see.
we met at harbourfront station,
then went kopitiam to eat breakfast,
[while jx ky and jh studied O.o]
then went GIANT to buy lunch,
which turned out to be snacks LOL.
then off to the beach!
oh ya saw gail and other netballers on monorail. ><
then....
i got showered with sand, i shower people in sand,
got buried in sand, bury ppl in sand,
got pushed into the sea, push ppl back into the sea,
lol the sea part was fun :]
kiayi was complaining that the guys should take off their top,
then when they did it she started complaining jx have no sixpack.
LOL jianhui super hyper, swam real far and got us all worried.
oh and we played the run into the water holding hands thing :)
now for the games...
played frisbee [got sandy],
volleyball [cant hit the ball],
water captain'sball [succeeded yet twisted ankle],
ice and water [ran barefooted on road O.o]
and i swam and floated.
LOL
oh speaking bout swimming,
junxiang had leg cramp while swimming O.O
then blah blah jianhui saved him.
then comes the funny part :D
the lifeguard on the tower on his loudhailer:
"hello, 你 ok mah?"
LOL so embarrassing!
overall it was totally fun, but the weather was atrocious.
rain, stop, rain, stop, rain again...
LOL we continued to play, but it was freezing cold!
haha junxiang and sherene were trembling all over.
after the whole thing, we bathe and went for dinner.
ate kiddie fish and chips at SecretRecipe :D
then came the time to leave D;
i had to leave earlier cos of my curfew. DD;
ALONE DDD;
oh well. forget that.
I CANT WAIT FOR ANOTHER OUTING.
i wanna go zoo next time :)
----------------------------------------
haha went cycling wtih my family at ecp today :D
MIKI WENT TOO!!!
haha everything was fun till it rained :(
i regret cycling siah, worsen my ankle.

2010-03-15T05:01:00.000-07:00

The poem - Jabberwocky
Lewis Carroll

'Twas brillig, and the slithy toves
Did gyre and gimble in the wabe;
All mimsy were the borogoves,
And the mome raths outgrabe.

"Beware the Jabberwock, my son!
The jaws that bite, the claws that catch!
Beware the Jubjub bird, and shun
The frumious Bandersnatch!"

He took his vorpal sword in hand:
Long time the manxome foe he sought—
So rested he by the Tumtum tree,
And stood awhile in thought.

And as in uffish thought he stood,
The Jabberwock, with eyes of flame,
Came whiffling through the tulgey wood,
And burbled as it came!

One, two! One, two! and through and through
The vorpal blade went snicker-snack!
He left it dead, and with its head
He went galumphing back.

"And hast thou slain the Jabberwock?
Come to my arms, my beamish boy!
O frabjous day! Callooh! Callay!"
He chortled in his joy.

'Twas brillig, and the slithy toves
Did gyre and gimble in the wabe;
All mimsy were the borogoves,
And the mome raths outgrabe.

2010-03-15T04:25:00.000-07:00

my POP is down :(
now using my brother's phone instead.
got it to vivo LG service centre.
need ONE WK to service it -.-

my new idol: MAD HATTER
some quotes from the movie :)
-------------------------------------
The Red Queen: I need a pig here!
[Live pig is slid under her feet]
The Red Queen: I love a warm pig belly
for my aching feet.
[Mad Hatter chuckles]
The Red Queen: Stop that!
------------------------------------
The Mad Hatter: What a regrettably large
head you have. I would very much like to hat
it. I use to hat The White Queen, you know.
Her head was so small.
The Red Queen: It's tiny. It's a pimple of a head.
------------------------------------
Stayne: If you're hiding her, you will lose your heads.
The Mad Hatter: [as Stayn clutches his throat]
Already lost them.
------------------------------------
Stayne: Alice has escaped.
[Red Queen slaps him]
Stayne: On the Bandersnatch.
[Red Queen slaps him again]
Stayne: With the Vorpal Sword.
[Red Queen slaps him again]
-----------------------------------
Stayne: [sees Alice] And who is this lovely creature?
The Red Queen: Um, my new favourite
Stayne: [To Alice] What is your name?
The Red Queen: Um
Stayne: [To Alice] I believe your name has slipped
the queen's mind.
The Red Queen: Her name is Um, IDIOT!
----------------------------------
The Red Queen: You're right Knave, its better to be
feared than loved.
----------------------------------
The Mad Hatter: Have I gone mad?
[Alice checks Hatter's temperature]
Alice: I'm afraid so. You're entirely bonkers. But I'll
tell you a secret. All the best people are.
----------------------------------
And my favourite of all,

The Mad Hatter:
'Twas brillig, and the slithy toves
did gyre and gimbel in the wabe;
all mimsy were the borogoves,
and the mome raths outgrabe.

haha, want some definitions?
Brillig — Four o'clock in the afternoon: the time when you
begin broiling things for dinner
Slithy — Combination of "slimy" and "lithe."
Tove — A combination of a badger, a lizard, and a corkscrew.
They are very curious looking creatures which make their
nests under sundials and eat only cheese.
Gyre — To go round and round like a gyroscope. However,
in here it meant to scratch like a dog.
Gimble — To make holes as does a gimlet.
Wabe — The grass plot around a sundial. It is called a "wabe"
because it goes a long way before it, and a long way behind it,
and a long way beyond it on each side
Mimsy — Combination of "miserable" and "flimsy"
Borogove — A thin shabby-looking bird with its feathers
sticking out all round, "something like a live mop".
Mome — Possibly short for "from home," meaning that the
raths had lost their way.
Rath — A sort of green pig
Outgrabe — Something between bellowing and whistling, with
a kind of sneeze in the middle.

2010-03-13T02:47:00.001-08:00

sorry people.

2010-03-06T03:27:00.000-08:00

today was storychallenge auditions.
and WE GOT IN. xD
but... the other team didnt T.T
nvm. we can still train tgt!
gonna be a strong battle next week!
anw, our topic was "a kiss to stepmother"
and condition is " 'what time is it' must be said 3 times"
wahahahahahahaaaa.
hugs to all that wished me goodluck!
thanks for cheering for me!
------------------------------
hiahhiah sister.
i know youre jealous~~
just because i dont blog bout studying,
doesnt mean i dont.
you dont go around
announcing that you ate do you?
------------------------------
i cant believe you can be so mean!
i cant believe you said all those things!
im so disappointed.
------------------------------
dunno leh..
i feel that ive become weaker.
i was strong in the past.
i rarely cried in front of people.
but now i cant control my tears.
oh and i cant control my laughter too.
last time, i nvr lost a staring match.
now i do.
boo to you therena, youre acting sucks.
-----------------------------

2010-03-04T05:17:00.000-08:00

IVE FINISHED MY LA SPEECH!! WOHOO!!
thanks a million to jx for providing me points,
and ang for helping me print it :DDDDD.

2010-03-03T01:43:00.000-08:00

HEY CYBER WORLD!! IM BACK!
LOL my com is still spoiled though, using my sis's
anw,, this com sucks, can play ps or spp o.o
my petlings gonna run away~~~

UPDATES!
ytd's cca was real fun :}
then after that eat LJS with vivan and peining.
then when i was walking to my bus stand, i thought,
oh its 730! the vball people should be out liao,
so i see whether i will meet any,
but when i reach my busstand still no,
so i line up, and the bus came,
and i walk with the queue and i spotted them!
LOL eu and zx was sitting on the bench drinkng bubble tea!
so i went to chat with them :]
LOL and apparantly they laugh at people who trips -.-
cos there was this carpet that was badly placed,
and people keep tripping over it...
LOL then both of them complained it was cold,
cos they drinking ice blended. stupid right?
then zx went to buy old chang kee to warm up themselves -.-
went home at bout 830.

today school was okok lorh,
then after school went eat subway~~
subway eat fresh~ xD
zx and zw went jp first cos zx cutting hair,
so me and ceci waited for eu and sher, who were in band rm.
then we went lorh! took bus even though one stop only xD
saw vanessatan, kh and xinyu.
then we went subway and met with zx and zw.
had subway melt <3 heavenly~~~
then sk came to join us.
shant say anymore here.. skips~~
then the guys left two by to, and left with us girls
so we went window shopping! :D
bought a new watch!!
its same style as sher & ceci's
sher= pink,
ceci= purple,
me= orange xD
haha ten bucks only siah........
then im back here liao lorh!!!
LOL its raining like mad out there...

suddenly have this liking for designing,
feel like buying white shoes and designing them my style :]
oh my dear computer, please coe back to me soon,
if not i cant print my LA script!!! argh.

2010-02-28T04:07:00.000-08:00

>:((((
therena is a stupid girl.
she missed the 1C dinner.
she missed the chance to see them.
she missed the steamboat dinner.
she missed the walk about.
she missed the arcade session.
she missed the fun and laughter.
therena is now so mad at therena.

2010-02-27T05:20:00.000-08:00

went to watch Percy.J today,
watched with sher, zx, sk, eu.
it was nice :] aiya to me all movie is nice...
anw before that we went arcade, and i spent 10$
T.T
but, i had fun driving+shooting dinosaurs!
LOL then i wanted to go dinnering with 1C,
but suddenly not feeling well liao.
stupid me. really wanted to go DDD;
..................................................................................

OMG CHELSEA JUST SCORED A GOAL!!!!
[against man city]
LOL i suddenly have this interest towards soccer.
dont ask me why. i dunno.
LOL my dad was watching,
then i watch and found it exciting. xD
OMG MAN CITY SCORED A GOAL AS WELL.
and this goal could have been so easily protected.
aww, nvm JIAYOU BLUE PEOPLE.
LOL half time liao -.-
.................................................................................

hmm.. i was in my cousin's room today,
and i saw something that made me cry.
it was my birthday board.
my birthday board filled mith messages.
filled with memories.
i realised how much everyone have changed.
and i couldnt take it.
the board felt so valuable to me!
every message, sincere or not, long or short,
was and IS a very important piece of me.
every 2Bian make up a part if my life,
just like every 3L people does.
not forgetting 1C of course :]
all of you, no matter you like me or not,
is part of my life, minor or not.
I WANT A 2B CLASS OUTING.
I CANT BELIEVE I MISSED 1C DINNER.
I CANT WAIT FOR 3L CHALET.

2010-02-25T02:08:00.000-08:00

LOL i realise i can be quite sensible as well!
sensible things ive said:

~life dont suck, it is whether your choices suck or not.
~nothing is impossible, or rather, impossible is nothing.
[abit adidas horh ><]
~he/she is not gonna lead my life. i am.

LOL suddenly doesnt seem so cool liao -.-
i still think im better at sarcarstic stuff anw,
wahahahah today's elit test was a joke.
i was super engrossed,
therefore i felt angry with the MAMMY character.
and i wrote.... "everyone else would have been so angry
with this irresponsible and bias BITCH" accidentally LOL!
i quickly cancel like mad and wrote "mum" back.
LOL siao right? then i showed gen, and she said:
"you'd better blanko it!" LOL.

oh and clap for me,
ive succeeded. finally.
ive got my life back :]

2010-02-23T04:26:00.000-08:00

felt ill today luh...
:(((
terrible headache, stomach churning.
wanted to vomit, vomited bile -.-
wasted my $$ to buy chyrsanthemum which i didnt touch.
still having that bloody headache.

DANCE SUCKS.
really wanted to excel it that.
oh well. blames myself.

felt something that ive never felt before.
weird, really weird feeling.
i feel cheated, lied to, betrayed.
mixture of all, with a punge of jealousy.
sudden realisation that im not so trusted after all.
and i was so proud that im trustable.
hmm... *uses the pinky methods*
:]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]

my aim: forget by the end of feb.
and im sure i can do it. im distracted.
finally, a hope for a new leash of life.

2月30号见 [飞轮海]

电话那头传来你的问候
态度暧昧说你怀念我的温柔
那时候多少次你以同样理由
约我到外面漫游
好久不见说要和我叙旧
就约在去年分手那个街头
这时候你的想法到底什么念头
是要我接受还是笑着泪流

就约好2月30号见
来看我被你重伤之后是如何复原
让我们2月30号见
就如你所愿如果真的有那么一天
否则其他时间无力回顾从前

用尽办法要把过去删掉
还有一点爱你差点被你动摇
心在跳这一切冷不防的打扰
还好没乱了阵脚
回忆还欠这一笔才勾销
很抱歉伤口依然裹着石膏
想不到不敢幻想我们再次遇到
要怎么拥抱才能表示友好

就约好2月30号见
来看我被你重伤之后是如何复原
让我们2月30号见
就如你所愿如果真的有那么一天
就约好2月30号见
来看我被你重伤之后是如何复原
让我们2月30号见
就如你所愿如果真的有那么一天
否则其他时间无力回顾从前
请让我彻底和你划清界限

原来是我不想画下句号
原来包袱收在心里不想丢掉
我知道不管自己躲到天涯海角
这个世界那么小总会遇到

2010-02-22T04:57:00.000-08:00

aww... look at all the happy faces :]

i miss you guys!

outing. outing. outing. outing.

2010-02-21T05:10:00.000-08:00

omg chingay 2010 totally rocks!
its showing now by the way,
woohooo!!!!
volunteering was really a great experience.
when you motivate people and they smile back,
that feeling that you get is priceless.
not forgetting i made so many great friends,
kiayi, junxiang, jianhui, atiqah, weijie,
sacchi, bryan, matilda, felicia, vanessa,
and manymanymany more!
i miss you guys!!!
i miss cheering madly with you guys,
i miss playing scissors paper stone split,
i miss playing i never,
i miss you all calling me sec 3.
i miss being asked "ji sui liao?!"
i miss calling junxiang and bryan wangzi-s,
i miss throwing our pompoms around,
i miss crapping with kiayi and aitqah,
i miss saying welcome to every single person,
i miss cheering for cosplayers,
i miss chasing and imitating the kungfu people,
i miss waving madly to the retarded dragon tail [LOO!]
i miss chasing after taufik.
and what do i miss most?
PLAYING WITH THE CONFETTI!!!
wahaha throwing it around,
slapping it on sweaty faces,
and of course i miss being attacked back xD

and i want to see the pictures!

2010-02-18T04:58:00.000-08:00

PINKY's way to a TROUBLE FREE life.
one.
`dont think about what's troubling you.
of it doesnt work, try two.
two.
` think of whats troubling you,
then think of your fav person
attacking that thing which is troubling you
three.
`always have someone to talk to you
know someone who understand what you're goin through
and dun close up yourself and expect to be happy
should rly open up share you problem with someone
who you think can understand.
four.
`always always always smile :DDDDD
and not a fake smile
please try to smile like you mean it
like think of smth happy!
trust pinky, seriously, ive never seen him emo.

2010-02-17T04:20:00.000-08:00

UPDATESSSS

13-2-2010 new year eve.
went the chun dao he pan thinggi.
WAHAHA finally saw tang hua.
my fav long lost malt candy art...
for pictures pls visit:
http://diminutiveness.blogspot.com/
[post heading is "cny"]

14-2-2010 cny
eh.. hmm nothing much.
ohoh!! but dinner at boonlayraja was great!
esp their golden prawn balls.
shiok like hell must learn how to do...

15-2-2010
whole day slack at home..
mahjiong... :]]]

16-02-2010
many things happened,
many troubles occured...
ah nvm... anw in the end went pooling :]
with sk zx sher.
funfunfun.
oh and while we waiting for the guys,
something weird occurred.
some random guy came and wanted my number.
o.o
LOL sher say i should feel flattered cos of that,
but i feel insulted instead siah... hmm...
anw at night went to watch THE MOVIE.
72 tentants of prosperity LOL
MUST WATCH DAMN NICE!!!

today
I HAVE ALREADY TOLD YOU ALL,
WHAT TO DO FOR DUTY.
DONT GIVE ME THAT LOOK,
WHEN YOU DONT IT RIGHT,
AND I CORRECT YOU.
THANK YOU VERY MUCH.
please know that i will start being strict about duty.
wahaha 2Bians see their THEMAK coming back !
should my mood be spoilt??
hmm no i guess.

oh ay ay
傻瓜飘傻瓜飘流.
任性女孩爱生气没有理由.
ay ay
傻瓜飘傻瓜飘流.
韧性男孩什么气都能接受. :D

2010-02-17T03:45:00.000-08:00

72 TENTANTS OF PROSPERITY
IS A MUST WATCH!!!
its super funny siah... funny until cannot.
the actors include[i like ones]:
曾志伟　袁咏仪　陈慧琳　张卫健　
许志安　陈百祥　佘诗曼　林　峰　
黄宗泽　钟嘉欣　王祖蓝黎耀祥
徐子珊謝天華 鄭嘉穎
LOVESSSS

now for the pictures...

seriously, go watch, best comedy yet.

it even complies of bits of 烈火雄心, 变节, 叶问... and more!!!!

oh there is a LOLITA in it too wahaha. damn funny.

WATCH WATCH WATCH WATCH WATCH

2010-02-12T04:57:00.001-08:00

thanks everyone for the vday presents!!!

today's outing was awesome.
awesome. awesome. awesome.
except for the paying part LOL.
nvm shant talk bout the bad parts.
developed a love for pool liao LOL.
shall go more often with shikai they all.
kbox sucks, i prefer partyworld. :]
LOL.
anw the only cool thing is that,
they have a machine for recording.
so your singing can be sent to yr phone!
ive got one of me and gen singing xiaxue,
and another of me singing shan nan xing nu.
aiyo but got abit sian at the back.
and clumsy shikai left his jacket behind.
its with me now heehee.
the jacket is really nice leh...
shall ask him where to buy. :]
I <3 my x-family!!!

一样. 一样. 一样. 一样. 一样.

2010-02-11T00:31:00.000-08:00

Click to enlarge and laugh your head off. LOLOL

2010-02-10T06:19:00.000-08:00

WOW.
valentines day jiu shi valentines day,
so many people falling in LOVE~
^^
went sher's hse to bake today,
ultimate muffins and truffles siah...
the thrillers and my besties are in for a treat ^^

2010-02-03T03:37:00.000-08:00

给女方:
你爽快一点好吗?
你是否知道你对他造成了极大的伤害.
如果你是喜欢他的,
就爽快的告诉他.
如果不时, 就直接对他说!
请你不要给他无畏的希望,
然后告诉其他人你一点都不喜欢他.
无聊.
你不要告诉我你不知道,
他疯狂的爱你, 是疯狂.
他已对你说了无数次.
你也不要告诉我,
你是为了让双方做永远的朋友.
我是不吃这一套的.
表面上他很快乐,
但他其实非常的痛苦,
你是否知道?
如果你是为了自己的娱乐,
而玩弄他, 要他的关爱罢了,
我只能用一个字形容你,
"贱"
我警告你, 他, 是我的朋友.
他痛苦, 我也不会快乐.
他遇到麻烦我是不会袖手旁观的.
请不要等到我插手才后悔莫及.
请你谨慎的做决定.

给男方:
读了以上的感想后,
我不知道你会怎么想,
你生我的气我也无所谓,
我已有了心里准备.
但是我还是要说, 请不要自作多情了.
说实在的, 我根本不信, 你那么爱她.
我相信你只是想找一个对象罢了.
算了吧, 时间会证明一切.

她如果真心的爱你, 我向你道歉.
但如果她还是不愿意说,
那我对你说三个字, 再三个字.
"别傻了" "醒醒吧"

2010-02-02T03:40:00.000-08:00

felt so down after dance today,
dont know what the hell is wrong with me.
but i believe it was because..
SOMEONE said "xiang therena zhe zhong ren,
shuo hua bu jing guo da nao"
then this reminded me of regine's comments on me.
and i was down again..
sorry to people i glared at..
thanks to people who tried to cheer me up,
esp sharky and shikai, who suceeded.
:DDDDDDDDDDD

super looking forward to our family outing siah...
wooosh wooosh wooosh.
NINE MORE SNAIL LIKE DAYS!!!!!!

shall report my HSK scores here...
*drumrolls*
第八级!!!! which is A!!!!
听力: 100!!!
语法: 96!!!
阅读: 100!!!
综合: 85!!!
总成绩: 383!!!!!
:DDDDDDDDDDD

hugs and kisses myself.
oh well. im betting i fail both math and eng.
at least HSK is a good start...

2010-01-30T04:28:00.000-08:00

~~~~~~~
(TWOBEE♥15) Therena 谁要做我的枕头 says:
saw my blog?
(TWOBEE♥13) xiaoreii says:
no
(TWOBEE♥15) Therena 谁要做我的枕头 says:
go see.
i dont want to repeat
(TWOBEE♥13) xiaoreii says:
i nv say u hate me
i nv even think u hate me
(TWOBEE♥15) Therena 谁要做我的枕头 says:
righttt.....
TWO people came to tell me that
(TWOBEE♥13) xiaoreii says:
zzz
i just said i thought u were bossy
i did not say u hated me
those two ppl arh
(TWOBEE♥15) Therena 谁要做我的枕头 says:
righttt.... but do you understand now?
(TWOBEE♥13) xiaoreii says:
ya
i kno u trying to help me la
but i dont really care abt ppl who hate me in class
i cant make everyone like me and i dont see the need to
(TWOBEE♥15) Therena 谁要做我的枕头 says:
seriously, you must really listen to others and think about how you can change, i dont believe you can dont care.
(TWOBEE♥13) xiaoreii says:
zzz
then i prove to you through action la
if i care, i will change
if i dont, i wont
(TWOBEE♥15) Therena 谁要做我的枕头 says:
so.. means you wont change larh?
(TWOBEE♥13) xiaoreii says:
ya
duh
(TWOBEE♥15) Therena 谁要做我的枕头 says:
oook.
so... do you still want my help?
(TWOBEE♥13) xiaoreii says:
ya
but not in this area
(TWOBEE♥15) Therena 谁要做我的枕头 says:
in what area then?
(TWOBEE♥13) xiaoreii says:
u tell me stuff i can do to improve or what
then i see whether i care
(TWOBEE♥15) Therena 谁要做我的枕头 says:
so.. its gonna be a routine that i'll be your advisor huh? your highness
(TWOBEE♥13) xiaoreii says:
u wan to help me ma
u dont wan oso can
(TWOBEE♥15) Therena 谁要做我的枕头 says:
what do you mean dontwan also can? im not thouse type that can leave my friends in trouble and turn and walk away
(TWOBEE♥13) xiaoreii says:
then u will help me ^^
(TWOBEE♥15) Therena 谁要做我的枕头 says:
and you better get that screwed into your mind
but if i tell you, and you dont want to even try. i am not helping you.
im gonna be someone that come and go at your will
(TWOBEE♥13) xiaoreii says:
sigh
just tell me if i made a terrible mistake k
(TWOBEE♥15) Therena 谁要做我的枕头 says:
define terrible.
(TWOBEE♥13) xiaoreii says:
lik offending someone without knowing it , specifically who and how
(TWOBEE♥15) Therena 谁要做我的枕头 says:
oh dear. i have a whole list.
(TWOBEE♥13) xiaoreii says:
tell me
(TWOBEE♥15) Therena 谁要做我的枕头 says:
but obviously i cant tell you who, i tell you how, and you say im bossy didnt you?
(TWOBEE♥13) xiaoreii says:
ya
sometimes
(TWOBEE♥15) Therena 谁要做我的枕头 says:
define sometimes
(TWOBEE♥13) xiaoreii says:
sometimes
lik when i say i dont care u keep asking
(TWOBEE♥15) Therena 谁要做我的枕头 says:
example?
(TWOBEE♥13) xiaoreii says:
the u must tone down blah blah
(TWOBEE♥15) Therena 谁要做我的枕头 says:
ohh... so thats counted bossy.
then, i expect i will always be bossy to you
sorry.
(TWOBEE♥13) xiaoreii says:
aw man
(TWOBEE♥15) Therena 谁要做我的枕头 says:
well, its just too bad we have diff point of view.
cos i consider what you consider bossy as CARING
hai... nvm then. you jiayou. while i continue helping you whenever i see/hear something wrong.
(TWOBEE♥13) xiaoreii || says:
ok
~~~~~~~

2010-01-29T04:18:00.000-08:00

xD
today's cca rocks.
"PT" was fun...
it was captain's ball, really. LOL

dinnered today with my "dad" and "bro"
zixuan and eugene larh duh..
was great :D
cos we talked about loads.
and we even walked around jp.
for presents for THEIR loved ones.

haiz...
what the hell can i get zhenghan for vday?
aiya at least better than ziwei so cannot complain.

anw shikai, if youre reading this,
go msn asap can? gotta tell you something.

oh and my DEAREST regine,
stop interpreting that I HATE YOU.
i am trying my best to help you,
you turn around and just say
"what therena think she veh big isiit" ?!
haha funny.
i will not stop helping you,
cos you are my friend. one of my best indeed.
but if you dont want me to,
SAY IT. TELL ME
not go around saying that i hate you and stuff.
tyvm.

2010-01-27T04:27:00.000-08:00

LOL TODAY WAS SO FUNNNNN.
yayyayyay.
today's trip to ScienceCentre was so fun!
so glad that 3E, B, and K and other classes came too!
thanks ci, sher, gen, shikai, eugene and zixuan for making my day!
:DDDDDDDDDDD smiles!

cheer up to my great friend,
*hugs*

2010-01-25T03:07:00.000-08:00

i just realised that cecillia, zixuan,
eugene and khoonhwee are really good friends too.

FML
i keep telling people to stop think of death,
but now? haha therena youre a joke.

2010-01-22T03:57:00.001-08:00

hai...

2010-01-20T05:26:00.003-08:00

and last night you sprouted wings[of the sishen in deathnote]
and you sucked my blood dry.

2010-01-19T04:11:00.000-08:00

saw my last post? it writes:
"ive never felt so lost before"
saw it? it was about this dream,
this dream that i had the day before that.

...
i was at a dark long corridor.
it was dark, cold, apparently scary.
i was running.
running away from something i dont know.
i was screaming too.
screaming for the unknown to go away.
i couldnt see the end of the corridor.
and i woke up and i cried.
the loneliness felt then was so real.
...

yep that was about it.
but ytd night i had the same dream again.
but it was soo much scarier.

...
so i was running, and screaming.
and this time i saw what was it.
it was a guy. i dont know who it was.
i couldnt see who but i regonised the outline.
i ran and i ran, but i seem to slow down with every step.
i screamed for the guy to go away, but he came closer.
then i tripped, letting out a piercing scream. duh.
and he caught me.
he held me up by my collar and pressed me to the wall.
and i had a good look at who he was.
it was HIM.
he said, "im sorry."

and he stabbed a knife into my heart.
...

i cried so much longer this time.
it was so scary hello?!
thus i took out the dream booklet,
and decipher my dreams.
CORRIDOR:
long corridor- im in some trouble.
dark corridor- i cant accept reality.
RUNNING AWAY[ESCAPING]:
-im losing myself,
might be because of someone i dont know,
or somebody else's boyfriend [?!]
SHADOW/OUTLINE OF SOMEONE:
-my relationship with that person isnt well off.
KILLING:
-i am forcing myself to do things i dont want to.
-im tolerating and bottling up too much.
-im under too much pressure.
KNIFE:
-attack. tiffs. quarrels. conflicts.
-wants to change the things that made me feel bad.

thats about it.
p.s. if you still dont know who "HIM" is, ask me lorh.

2010-01-17T01:52:00.000-08:00

ive never felt so lost before.

2010-01-14T06:45:00.001-08:00

HAPPY

BIRTHDAY

SHIKAI!
im sorry i lied to you, i promise i'll never do it again.

2010-01-11T00:59:00.000-08:00

why is it that you keep scolding and scolding me.
are you addicted to it? or am i your punchbag.
just because of any tiny careless mistakes i make,
every little thing that i didnt mean to do,
every miniscular stuff that i didnt know could affect you,
you start.
you scold me in any language or phrase you can think of.
stupid. idiot. pig. bitch. bastard. failure.
prostitude. cb. lj. tmd. and many more.
i keep quiet, and you continue.
i rebut, and you still go on.

i yearn.
i yearn for your praise,
the praises that ive not heard for a long,
very very long period of time.

dont say i dont earn the praises.
you never gave them to me when i do earn them.
i know that you are stressed out.
that is why i dont rebut you. not like last time.
i just sit there, and let you go on and on.
it seems like i dont care, doesnt it?
but yet, i do.
i do but i never told you.
and this is because i love you, i care.
i rather let you transfer you burden onto my shoulders.
than to see you cry times and times again.

but who can i turn to after that?
who?

2010-01-08T02:28:00.000-08:00

you guys still rmb i said i was happy that
my former classmates waves and says hi to me?
well, there are always exceptions...
as in some doesnt care about me anymore...
i dont blame you if you didnt see me,
but i am really hurt when i see that
YOU SAW ME IN MY EYES BUT TURN AWAY.
well, this applies to a few people, more than 5.
look. no point calling me to let go, to move on...
the memories have eched too deeply in my heart.

2010-01-05T03:22:00.000-08:00

hahas...
school was ok after all,
thanks everyone who encouraged me!

made many new friends xD
genevieve, nicole foo, gail,
ziwei, eugene, zhimin +++

shall talk bout my classes one by one:

first class was chem,
the relief tcher damn funny leh xD
he looks super shy and gentleman but guess what,
he was instructor for some gun or something in army!
HARHARH. we was the first class he ever took!
MrCephasYee.
then was math,
taught by my form, MsJane
[AHA ying2]
ok larh, i can follow,
but she suddenly teach until physics leh...
weird.
then was recess,
wasnt really happy,
cos food damn ex leh... D;
then had dance,
joke larh that class,
made us all want to sleep..
then elit,
quite ok larh...
but i angry cos they dirtied our floor,
damn, we needed to mop b4 cca,
anw the teacher seems nice :D
MsFaithGoh
then chinese,
lol wanted to sleep...
anw she knows my sis lol.
GuoLanHuaLaoShi

looking forward to bio and el!,
but pe??? not so sure...

2Bians,
i really happy whenever i meet you guys!!!
especially people like,
regine, angela, weiquan, shikai, sharon, joey...
plusplus.
really cheers me up to see you guys!
happyhappy.

hmm...
mum say will consider lettimg me wear contacts everyday,
as in monthly wan like weiquan larh, not daily...
really hopes she say yes.
wearing specs got so many disadvantages...

2009-12-31T06:25:00.000-08:00

talking to ngyong is so fun!
---------------------------------------
(TWOBEE♥15) Therena FAHRENHEIT IS ONNNN!!!!! says:
FAHRENHEIT IS ONNN!
xD
(TWOBEE♥25)Ng Yong says:
huh?
(TWOBEE♥15) Therena FAHRENHEIT IS ONNNN!!!!! says:
tvbs taibei countdown
(TWOBEE♥25)Ng Yong says:
on what?drugs?
(TWOBEE♥15) Therena FAHRENHEIT IS ONNNN!!!!! says:
oi
what on drugs
you larh
(TWOBEE♥25)Ng Yong says:
what number on the countdown
(TWOBEE♥15) Therena FAHRENHEIT IS ONNNN!!!!! says:
eh now ads
so i dunno
xD
(TWOBEE♥25)Ng Yong says:
top what?20?
(TWOBEE♥15) Therena FAHRENHEIT IS ONNNN!!!!! says:
huh?
i talking about countdown party
fahrenheit is on next.
(TWOBEE♥25)Ng Yong says:
ah chey i tot you meant a you know song countdown
(TWOBEE♥15) Therena FAHRENHEIT IS ONNNN!!!!! says:
onstage singing
lol
(TWOBEE♥25)Ng Yong says:
oh chey
(TWOBEE♥15) Therena FAHRENHEIT IS ONNNN!!!!! says:
song wan they sure first
cos tvbs always play their song
(TWOBEE♥25)Ng Yong says:
right
(TWOBEE♥15) Therena FAHRENHEIT IS ONNNN!!!!! says:
cos tvbs always play their song
cannot arh
(TWOBEE♥25)Ng Yong says:
wait what the heck is tvbs
(TWOBEE♥15) Therena FAHRENHEIT IS ONNNN!!!!! says:
erm some channel.
astro channel
(TWOBEE♥25)Ng Yong says:
what number one
(TWOBEE♥15) Therena FAHRENHEIT IS ONNNN!!!!! says:
54 on singtel
you try
as in starhub sorry
(TWOBEE♥25)Ng Yong says:
hmm i think i have
yea i have
(TWOBEE♥15) Therena FAHRENHEIT IS ONNNN!!!!! says:
see them???
omg!!!!
xD
how how?
(TWOBEE♥25)Ng Yong says:
im erm not watching my bro is
(TWOBEE♥15) Therena FAHRENHEIT IS ONNNN!!!!! says:
oi
you see abit wont die
call him stop watching stupid godzilla
(TWOBEE♥25)Ng Yong says:
he's not watching godzilla
i think hes watching high school musical
fyi my bro is 18
(TWOBEE♥15) Therena FAHRENHEIT IS ONNNN!!!!! says:
what??!!
not worth it
call him turn abit larh..
faster
(TWOBEE♥25)Ng Yong says:
zzz
(TWOBEE♥15) Therena FAHRENHEIT IS ONNNN!!!!! says:
pleaseeee
(TWOBEE♥25)Ng Yong says:
dun you have it
(TWOBEE♥15) Therena FAHRENHEIT IS ONNNN!!!!! says:
i have duh. you watch!then you will be totally mesmerised.
W-A-T-C-H
(TWOBEE♥25)Ng Yong says:
there i watch 1 sec of it
(TWOBEE♥15) Therena FAHRENHEIT IS ONNNN!!!!! says:
yay! shuai right.
(TWOBEE♥25)Ng Yong says:
er i guess
eh i gtg liao so bb
(TWOBEE♥15) Therena FAHRENHEIT IS ONNNN!!!!! said (10:24 PM):
oi
:(

--------------------------------------------
im trying. really.
im trying my best.

2009-12-30T03:02:00.000-08:00

i sent an email to Mr Yeo bout the Big Walk caps.
below is the email :

Hello Mr Yeo,

The purpose of my email is to ask about why my class, 2B,
is not eligible for the Big Walk Caps. I hope I can know the
real reasons behind why is this so, as I have heard 3
different versions of why we do not get them, and I hope
to know whether they are true.

1. Because on the list, we ticked beside the names of the
people who are participating in the walk, instead of
highlighting them, and thus we do not get the caps. For
this reason, I think it is unfair as we still made a mark of
who is going and who is not, also, only the chairperson
knows that we are suppose to highlight the names, the
others do not know about this.

2. Because although, we submitted the very same list on time,
it did not reach you. Therefore, it was said we did not submit
it on time. When the list was found, only the t-shirts, and not
the caps, were ordered for us. For this reason, we did hand in
the form on time and therefore, I do not see why we shouldn't
get the caps.

3. Because we did not submit our BigWalk consent forms before
13 November. For this reason, i think it is unfair as it was not
mentioned before 13 November that "the exclusive event caps
will only be given to students who have signed up for the run/
walk relay with their consent forms returned to the school in
November." It was only mentioned in the IVLE announcement of
24 December.

I hope that you will understand that I wish to know the real
reasons behind this issue so as to avoid any unwanted
misunderstandings, and also to let me and my classmates know
why we are the only class that do not get the caps. Also, if the
reason is inappropriate, I suppose my class should get the caps
or it would be unfair to us, as these caps are very unique, as it
is a souvenir that we took part in the one and only "RV Big Walk".
Not everyone, not even everyone in RV, can get these exclusive
caps. Lastly, we are supposed to be wear both the event cap
and shirt for the Big Walk. If we do not get the caps, doesn't it
mean that we cannot take part in the event? I hope you will
understand my point and reply my email ASAP. Sorry if there is
any inconvenience caused and thank you very much for your
understanding.

Therena Mak Cui Wen
[Student of 2B'08]
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then i got his reply :

Hello Therena,

Thanks for bringing this up.

1. Your class' order form was lost in the initial pile of orders. Hence when i got Sylvia to help me sift out those who were eligible for caps, your class namelist was not inside, and i told her to skip it. I found it later, and my priority was to ensure that everyone get a shirt first.

2. it is unfair as it was not mentioned before 13 November that "the exclusive event caps
will only be given to students who have signed up for the run/walk relay with their consent forms returned to the school in November." It was only mentioned in the IVLE announcement of 24 December.
When Mr Chua and i gave the briefing to the whole level before school closed, we had already mentioned in our slides that the caps will only be given to the walkers, and to qualify as a walker, all must hand in consent forms. The last day for submission was supposed to be 30 November, but i extended it to 14 dec, and because of the school's shifting, i had opened up every possible avenue ( fax, email, and snail mail) for interested party to sign up. However, many of your friends did not respond. FYI, after doing so much, i only got less than 5 people who signed up through this method.

I hope you also understand that the caps need money, and i have to account to the sponsors. The suppliers need time to make the caps too. I have to set a closing time, because i need to budget for the caps and give the suppliers a quantity to work on. I therefore could only give the caps to those who have signed up, and the proof of signing up is the consent form!

3. From my records, only 4 persons in your class have submitted the consent forms. The caps have been reserved for the 4 of you. reasons why your names were not highlighted, is as mentioned in point 1.

4. you are a good writer. Your points were clear and forceful, and the tone was firm yet respectful. Keep it up.

Mr Yeo
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haha. didnt expect the compliment.
[2Bians go class blog for more details]
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omg my new tv arrive liao!!!
wah damn big leh!!!
last time watch 21-inch
now watch 37-inch!
siao eh.

anws, really enjoyed the day with regine and sharon!

2009-12-26T03:32:00.000-08:00

就算是石头也还是一样会痛的.

2009-12-26T01:20:00.000-08:00

萧敬腾 - 善男信女

不远处有一片土站了一棵枯的树
仔细看那树枝的孤度像在哭
枯树前杂踏脚步收集安心的孤独
为什么眼前荒芜是天下有情人的归宿

那片山谷入口处清楚刻着伤心人的墓
那片浓雾隔绝了其实可以忘了爱的省悟
别哭
那片乐土是不是至少能让眼泪都停住
祝福什么都不再记住祝福下一次总会幸福
祝福爱情的信徒那善男信女别太辛苦

枯树前杂踏脚步刻着心碎的控诉
读完别人的感触却又义无反顾的投入

那片山谷入口处清楚刻着伤心人的墓
那片浓雾隔绝了其实可以忘了爱的省悟
别哭
那片乐土是不是至少能让眼泪都停住
祝福什么都不再记住祝福下一次总会幸福
祝福爱情的信徒那善男信女都别再继续守护

谁的衣服还穿着只为遮掩苍白的皮肤
谁的脚步有几个真的可以远离爱远离糊涂
别哭
谁的省悟～从此入土
祝福什么都不再记住祝福很快会找到幸福
祝福爱情的信徒那善男信女不再辛苦

2009-12-23T00:38:00.000-08:00

i realised that im not obsessed with fahrenheit anymore.
its only aaron yan ya lun that im obsessed with.
anyway. seems like ive also found another singer i LOVE.
guess who?
he's cute, have a great sense of humor, and sings madly well!
he is...
.
.
*drumrolls*
.
.
Jam萧敬腾!!!

ok so lets compare aaron[yyl] and xiaojingteng[xjt].
(marks upon 100% )

帅气: YYL-95%
XJT-89%
电力[眼神]: YYL-101%
XJT-85%
歌声: YYL-79%
XJT-101%
爆发力: YYL-85%
XJT-500%

well, that doesnt mean i like XJT more,
theyre equal!
but, if i would buy their merchandise,
i will most likely buy YYL's.
[lol i already lave loads xD]
but if it comes to DvDs,
i will simply choose XJT's,
[especially his new album王妃!]
cos YYL doesnt have singles.
when it comes to drama,
i will still choose YYL,
[or even jiro, he rocks at acting]
since ive nvr seen XJT act.
oh well,

炎亚倫&萧敬腾, 加油加油加油!!!

2009-12-23T00:03:00.001-08:00

炎亚倫萧敬腾

2009-12-22T05:14:00.000-08:00

MY NEW PHONE!!!

nokia w5800.

although i really wanted this...

(SE Jalou) but they all say its not suitable for me

cos its tiny.

oh well, w5800 is great too!

yay! :)

2009-12-20T02:53:00.000-08:00

had a crazy dream.
horrible.

well. i was in this jungle with sharon and yiheng.
the jungle was dark and cold so we were panicking.
then we saw a topless hot guy walking in front of us.
then sharon say we should follow him.
and yiheng ask "会不会是鬼?"
then sharon say "你有看过鬼是帅哥的meh?"
then i say "yarlorh戏里面都是女鬼what."
-.-
then we follow him lorh...
then suddenly we in a balcony of a hse in the jungle.
then the guy was in front doing push ups.
then yh walk up and ask him if he noe how to get out.
then he suddenly turn into voldemort and strangle yh!
then yh fell dead infront us!!!!
then sharon and i scream in each others face,
then we climb down a ladder from the balcony afap!
then voldemort chase after us.
then
.
.
.
then
.
.
.
then
.
.
.
then i woke up.
sorry larh anti-climax.
but my mum ask me to get up if i want my
"home-made western breakfast!"

2009-12-19T02:16:00.000-08:00

new school shoes!
pretty eh?

new shoes!

pretty new pencil case!

2009-12-19T01:22:00.000-08:00

hey im back!

was busy with the 3 families at my hse few days ago.

now they go back msia le.

eh... i post bout our sentosa trip?

[pics coped from sis blog]

yahyah i look stupid.

i made this myself!

didnt manage to make the hands cause it rained....

lols. my cousin became a mermaid.

yaya i look like a mad woman.

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what should i post next?

oh i addicted in new online game :]

super dance online [SDO-X]

great game really!

and i addicted to pet society once more!

go take a look at my rooms. simple yet i like them.

the kitchen not finished thou.

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and i still cant forget you.

maybe i should listen to joey?

maybe i shouldnt give up?

cos i cant even if i want to.

2009-12-04T23:52:00.000-08:00

went to this ytd.

actually to support yijin's friend.

i think.

then supershocking.

cos there were rvians!

and i noe them!

jack, winkit, peiyao[if im not wrong], yixuan...

my god! what shock.

then they came out for the opening mass dance.

and jack danced RIGHT INFRONT OF ME!

wth.

anyway,

they were in different groups.

but all of them did real well :]

they won alot of prizes!

seems fun.. hmm im interested.

lols.

anyway this show thing ended at 11pm?!

and it was held in dunman high.

right at the other end of s'pore, from my hse.

oh great.

i reached home at 0047?!

still, not complaining.

it was a great drama gameshow!

well done rv competitors. :]

2009-11-28T21:19:00.000-08:00

当他们在外的时候,
我感到十分空虚...
不知道自己该说什么, 做什么.
天天看着那台电话,
等待有人能跟我联络.
却等不到.
那几天我感到十分的反常.
时不时就会很烦,
却布置自己到地在烦恼什么.
就很空, 非常非常地空.
就像自己被悬挂在半空中.
把自己吊起的只是一个细细地蚕丝.
随时都有可能断掉.

这应该就是所谓的想念吧.

他们回来了.
原本应该感到开心的我,
却找不到快乐.
看见他们在一张张的纪念照里,
笑得无比地灿烂,
蚕丝断了. 终于断了.
原本该跌在地上有站起来的我,
却跌入了一个无底洞.

这应该就是所谓的嫉妒吧.

2009-11-28T21:16:00.000-08:00

they had so much fun on the trip.
ive never seen some of them smile so happily before.
[refer to pictures on fb]

anyway.
i went to pierce my ears again ytd.
lols last time was 10 years back!
now got two piercing on each ear.

mum and bro are in msia.
which means me and sis alone in the hse!
for more than a week! again!

2009-11-22T20:03:00.000-08:00

pretty.

if you are wondering why only four?

shikai took one of them.

went to watch 2012 after chalet.

only five of us.

weiquan, shikai, yeeyang, zihao and me.

it was great.

dunno why some people say its sucks.
different people different views bah.

i really like how the movie "jumps" here and there.

then magically all join together :]

well, look forward to another movie trip :]

cant decide which to watch.

new moon?

sherlocks holmes?

or 风云2?

...

p.s. will upload genting photos to facebook.

2009-11-19T18:29:00.000-08:00

ive had a perfect dream last night.
something im sure regine would like to dream about.
gonna type it here while my memory is clear.
:D
well, here goes nothing...

it started in the class chalet,
i was waving g'bye to people aint staying overnight.
then i ran up the stairs,
[as i was the only one left downstairs]
and into the guy's room to continue my daidi game.
and i saw that only w, x, y, and z are there.
[ dont feel like saying who]
"eh, where are the others?'' i asked.
"no more what. all went home." X replied. [playing psp]
'' wth, then i only girl again..."
"you girl meh? game. im king again" Z teased.
"huh? then i sleep alone? i scared sia"
"then you want sleep here meh?" W said.
"can? i dont mind..."
"yah then we shall all wear red!" Z teased[again...]
[i gave hime the whatever face]
"nvm lorh, you sleep here." Y finally spoke.
lols. i kept quiet.[but smiled.]
then they started talking about sick stuff as if i wasnt there.
then X started talking bout girls giving away their first kiss easily.
and they finally notice my presence. [-.-]
"eh, your first kiss gone arh?" W ask me.
"no larh! i will protect my first kiss from everything else,"
i replied," except the lips of the person i like" [blush]
then they started "ohh"ing, i and i escape by going to get a drink.
and so i ran downstairs again,
and i screamed.
and i was held hostage.
well, i dont mind revealing this person,
just that its simply ridiculous.
it was angweixuan. [?!]
and he had a gang. [?!?!?!]
then the guys rush down. [obviously they heard me scream]
and they found me being held by awx,
with a knife on my throat. [o.0]
and so the guys froze at the foot of the stairs.
then he said something bout liking me for veh long...
what gonna prove it by taking away my first kiss?!?!?!
then his big oily face came nearer.
and [ah-duh] i struggled.
tada!
the guy saw me struggle and rescue me larh.
i must say they fight awesome.
suave moves xD
then Y came and took awx's knife[sharp side]
in his hand [ouch] and his hands started to bleed.
awx saw the blod and got scared.
and he ran, with his stupid gang.
coward.
well, obviously i cried,
awx was so bloody scary.
and then W saw blood coming out of my neck.
small cut, not deep at all.
the deep cut was in Y's hands.
then X suddenly scolded Y a coward,
say he like me also dont dare to say.
and me, super shuai-ly say:
"i dont need your pity. you like someone else."
then Z went up to grab Y phone and showed me.
i was shocked,
Y nvr let any girls see his phone.
and i finally noe why.
i sat there, shocked, cant even move.
then Y move closer and took my face.
the next second,
he took away my first kiss and stole my heart.
and i woke up.

whatever.
i must have been watching to many taiwanese idol show.
what a ridiculous dream of fantasy.
but i liked it... heehee
regine and xiumei arent you jealous? x'D
anyway, they are all in china now,
so im bored. way too bored.

oh and the phone?
it was full of my pictures.

2009-11-18T05:54:00.000-08:00

:]
i love our class chalet.

i love cooking.
i love our screwed spagetti.
i love our horrifying cereals.
i love our tasty fried rice.
i love our butter toast.
i love our crazy bbq.
i love our satay men.

i love taiti.
i love our taiti kings.
i love our taiti queens.
i love our taiti sluts.
i love our taiti assholes.

i love cheat.
i love our guailan "开!"s.
i love our despo cheaters.
i love our honest players.

i love stress.
i love our speedy stressers.
i love our slow but steady ones.
i love our rhythem "piak piak piak!".

to sum up,
i love twobee.

LOL!!!!

2009-11-06T02:44:00.000-08:00

LOL! i finally received my 通商中国card!

hey, my brother said he saw a message saying

"2B i miss you" [or something like that]

on "okto live" message board!

was it one of you guys?

fahrenheit's 原点!

2009-11-05T23:53:00.000-08:00

heyhey! long time no post liao!
well, this post is not going to be bout 2Bee,
cos i cant think of how i describe my feelings.
oh well, since i finally got my 原点from regine,
i decided to post it's pictures :]
and since im posting bout it,
i decided to post my other fahrenheit stuff too!

[click to enlarge]
COS IM SERIOUSLY BORED!

posters and magazines[and their freebies!]

random merchandises.
includes stickers, laminated cards, calenders...
xD

poker card set.

原点!
includes four books:
My Journey, 我的旅程---CHUN
王子的流浪---CALVIN
綸.语---AARON
永不完结的摇滚乐章---JIRO

back covers...

front covers...

badminton

2009-10-26T22:13:00.000-07:00

hmm..
had a nice game of badminton ytd.
:]
thanks angela for inviting me.

桃花小妹?

2009-10-20T06:17:00.000-07:00

hmmmmm.....
tsk tsk tsk.
as compared to 桃花小妹,
isnt 桃花爱无敌 better?!

no, i shouldnt

2009-10-18T01:54:00.000-07:00

i decided not to think about the overseas trip anymore.
i was in the wrong, and i shouldnt find excuses.
i should not find someone to blame to sooth my ego.
i should try to improve myself from it instead.

sorry ms teo.

unhappy

2009-10-16T02:58:00.000-07:00

hey, this is not a cheery post.
skip it if you dont want to read.
i dont want to dampen your moods.

one.
ive just heard.
they are going to suzhou and nanjing,
AND malang next year.
oh great, just great.
just when ive gotten over it.
it stabbed me once more.
im bursting with envy and jealousy.
and yiheng, no offence but youre wrong,
rv only give chances to those with good grades.
not everyone get the chance.
not someone as stupid as me.

two.
and you.
why must you bother him all the time.
arent the others the same.
or are they not enough to fill you.
or perhaps just because you want him.
if thats what it is, tell me.
i'll see what i can do to give up.

three.
and both of you.
stop it, seriously.
you dont know what damage youve caused.
what pain youve caused for me.
my pain in exchange for your laughs,
it is soooo worth it, isnt it?

PEPPER LUNCH!

2009-10-14T02:02:00.000-07:00

today was a total slack day.

and the wayang kulit?

screwed.

aiya, back to the point of this post,

TADA!!!

PEPPER LUNCH!!!

[introduced by my sis, paid by my mum xD]

seriously its damn nice.

and the student meal is only $5.90! what a bargain!

anws.. follow the captionss!

MY LOVE----- Miso chicken bolognise

on the left---tha sauce, tha cheeeze.

close up.

then... at tha sauce and cheese and...

MIX!!!

TADA!!! nice eh???

yum!

aha! i see you drooling!
want to eat? i dont mind eating again!
tell me if you want to go!
anw.. im eating a KIWI now..
nope. its not sour, in fact, its darn sweet!!!
[see below]

you took my heart, and smashed it into itsy bitsy pieces...

Lot one trip

2009-10-12T05:31:00.000-07:00

today after school go the bloody puppet thing...
then sian all the way.
then dunno how end up got chosen to perform.
=.=

nvm. after that went to eat.
me, joey, sk, morgan, sebas.
then joey backed out. grr[jk].
so me and three retards went lot 1.
ate koba, and none of em found it filling.
lols.
shikai cop-ed mine,
sebas bought some tofu thing,
morgan bought tako balls.
+.+

gah. thats not the point.
point is. I VEH NOOB LEH!
they name the people [rv year2s]
only about 1/5 no wait, 1/10 i noe!
gotta noe more people next year.
mission [im]possible.

`you hurt me by your ignores

2009-10-09T05:32:00.000-07:00

LOLS!! look at the sauces!

mine is the tallest :]
[it was peppermint sprite, tasted like melted mentos!]

Kahleong=only guy[well, not really..]

woohh. defy gravity!

anws,during this period of exams.

[history sucks!]

i lost some, i gained some.

2009-10-02T03:30:00.000-07:00

IVE GOT A NEW FRIEND NAME ALVIN!
HE IS SHARON"S PRI SCHOOL FRIEND!
HE LOOK 95% LIKE MY COUSIN!
LOLOLOL!

2009-10-01T21:55:00.000-07:00

最怕空气突然安静
最怕朋友突然的关心
最怕回忆突然翻滚
绞痛着不平息
最怕突然听到你的消息

想念如果会有声音
不愿那是悲伤的哭泣
事到如今
终於让自已属於我自已
只剩眼泪还骗不过自己

突然好想你
你会在哪里
过的快乐或委屈
突然好想你
突然锋利的回忆
突然模糊的眼睛

我们像一首最美丽的歌曲
变成两部悲伤的电影
为什麽你
带我走过最难忘的旅行
然后留下最痛的纪念品

我们那麽甜那麽美
那麽相信
那麽疯那麽热烈的曾经
为何我们
还是要奔向各自的幸福
和遗憾中老去

突然好想你
你会在哪里
过的快乐或委屈
突然好想你
突然锋利的回忆
突然模糊的眼睛

2009-10-01T04:12:00.000-07:00

lols.
i still dont get it.
you said i nvr EVER admit my mistakes.
oh great.

my sorrys are dumped into the sea.
i explained and you dont take it.
what can i do.

how i wish you could read minds.
then you can read mine and know im not lying.

i dont deny i had denied my mistakes.
but just not everytime, in fact, not most of the time.
and definitely not on the two you mentioned.

my forget its, sorrys, nvrminds are all sweeped away.
my whatevers, i dont cares, wtfs, are all pinned down.

and.
i hate it when people say:
"YOU ARE RIGHT, I AM WRONG! OK? HAPPY?"
by hate, i mean hate it to the core, deep down.

2009-09-28T04:00:00.000-07:00

im dead.
i dont feel like studying, at all.
unless, someone, persuay me to.

dont want to leave the problem unstitch.
leave it open, leave it to rot.
unless, someone, ask me to.

feel like im going mad.
feel like going away. fainting.
unless, someone, holds on to me.

who may be this last resort?

突然好想你
你会在哪里
过的快乐或委屈突
然好想你
突然锋利的回忆
突然模糊的眼睛

2009-09-26T21:04:00.000-07:00

a sudden pang of hatred fills me.

2009-09-23T05:47:00.000-07:00

everyone is writing stories, perhaps i'll try too?
this is a two part short story.
~RainClouds~ [part 1]
"Rain? Rain, is that you?”Cloud panted. “Rain? Don’t go!”
But he is gone. Gone, like how all rainclouds disappear.
Rain was a brilliant teen, great results, great future. He even found himself his other half, Cloud. But things have changed, that was all in the past. A few weeks ago, he met his old primary school mate, the ones that didn’t make it to RI like Rain did. They started going out together, for sports, then for karaoke, then for underage drinks, and now, for cigarettes.
“This cannot be true! Rain, Rain is perfect, he is the greatest person ever! It can’t be true, I must have mistaken things. No, this cannot be true.” but no matter how Cloud tries to hypnotize herself, the truth still can’t be denied. The Rain that she knew was gone, gone like the wind.
Cloud slid down the wall, and hugged her knee to her head, tears escaped her eyes like prisoners on a free rein. She cried. She wailed. She have been lying to herself that nothing went wrong, that she can accept this, that Rain, was still Rain.
Finally, she understood. She could not escape from the truth forever; she will have to accept it sooner or later. Today is her birthday, today shall be the day she make a difference, she must talk to Rain, she must help him. As she wiped away her last drop of tears, she whispered to herself, “I must, and I will.”

2009-09-23T04:19:00.000-07:00

i am so happy today.

i helped sharon for the stalker incident.
i helped joey be happy again.
i even help joey cheer morgan up!
this was what i told joey :
[she thought she was not worthy of morgan]

"dont you see, joey? he is perfect at what you are not,
and you are at what he's not, this makes you the perfect pair!
and the thing that's even more rare is that you love each other."

and she immediately cheered.
and i told her to tell morgan that, adding ILY behind.
and she did. [i hope she added the ily!]
:]

i am a good person.

2009-09-21T01:34:00.000-07:00

feeling dead stupid after conversing with yeeyang and shikai on msn...
i actually though shikai was yeeyang and yeeyang was shikai!
boy am i stupid.

oh and i just found out there is something wrong with my blogskin!
the date time thingi is too slow...

2009-09-20T21:02:00.000-07:00

had a very strange dream...
it was strangely clear and memorable
in this dream, there were my two best friend.
erm... i dont think i should type their name...
so, they'll be A and B.
and there was this guy. i'll call him C?

the dream took place at the class.

as my besties, A and B knew that i liked C,
but today, they were behaving very weird.
both A and B were flirting with C.
i was totally disgusted.
B," hello C! hahaha why do you keep looking outside?"
A," hehehee, yah lor, tell us whats so nice out there..."
C,"erm, nothing larh... shh..."
[blahblahblah-it was amazingly clear, as i said.]

then the dream jumped to the back seats of 2nd-deck 97.

A," oi, why you look so sad, thinking of C arh?"
i was freaking angry by then i said,
"you all noe that i like C, why you keep flirting with him?"
both of them looked uneasy.
then B started talking,
" well, it is your fault what, you told us you like him!"
i went, "WHAT THE F--- GOT IT TO DO WITH FLIRTING?"
A," oi! dont vulgar can, of course got link larh,
we keep looking at him coz of you, and then we started thinking..."
i was mad. real mad. "think what? say larh!"
A," we think that he is very nice, and cute, and lovable..."
[omg i cant believe i just typed that! these is all real. none is edited]
i was freaking irritated and angry. how could they.
i ran down the bus and alighted.
[dunno why the bus so fast, it was JE library there]
it was raining like hell, but i didnt bother to find shelter.
i walked in the rain towards mrt station.

the dream change to indoor swimming complex?!

i was having a flu, but i need to swim coz i have no MC.
also, it was the test day, according to coaches.
dunno why C didnt need to swim, he help take timing.
the water was damn cold. i was freezing.
i swam and swam, but i cnt help thinking of A and B.
i was at my last lap when, CRAMP.
struggle struggle struggle. i was dead scared.
then i heard a splash, someone was coming to save me.
someone who wasnt in swimming costume.

scene then changed to sick bay.

as you all know sick bay got two beds.
i was in one, the other one was occupied as well.
my view was foggy, but i heard the OL say,
"poor boy, jumped into the water though he had a bad cold."
thus i knew the one in the other bed was whoever save me.
the OL left.
i turned around and said, " thanks, but, who are you?"
[apparantly there is some board thing blocking my view]
he replied,"sure. there is something you need to noe."
i regonised that voice, it was C.
surprised, i said, " i need to noe what?"
C," A and B came to confess to me."
tears streamed down my cheeks.
i replied," well they are nice people. "
C," i rejected. i was waiting for you."
my tears became uncontrollable.

then i woke up and found out that i was really in tears.
lol. dramatic. this is so not going to happen.
well, believe it or not, i did dream of this.
it was really surprisingly clear.

2009-09-18T22:08:00.000-07:00

why am i feeling so bitchy?
have you ever tried to understand.

2009-09-17T00:45:00.000-07:00

i really want to go.
really.
ive never had anything that i so desperately want before.
never to that extend that i would talk to someone i hate so politely.
but, you said no.
only a simple no.

shikai said if i dont ask, i will regret forever.
even i was foolished enough to think i stand i chance.
you are stupid, therena. you're a total idiot.

i know it is my fault i dont have good grades.
it is my fault i dont understand a shit about history.
its my fault i am just stupid.
but did you even think,
that i could do more than grades?
and you just said no.

you all may say, its just a trip.
but to me, i just feel that it is a very important chance for me.
i also dont know why. i just want to go.
what is the point of the 3 Gpa thing?
i dont see the point.
what have score got to do with this?
i just want to go. desperately.

yet you said NO.

2009-09-15T04:45:00.000-07:00

super cute right?!

2009-09-10T05:15:00.000-07:00

COOKIE MONSTER!
yes, your eyes are not wrong.
I AM BAKING!!!
me and me sis and me sis's friend.
first time siah...
"virgin cookies!"
[my mum went msia wif my bro and the baby,
thats why we can "kope" the oven!]
lols. doing pancakes tmr... heeheee.
well, LET THE PICTURE DO THE TALKING!